i haven't worn my contacts/glasses for 3 days now...feels great, vision improving....except at night...vision is absolutely awful at night. i'm impressed that i'm able to differentiate between indoors and outdoors...thank god for my other senses.
welp...48 hours, no sleep, and minus 5 pounds (seriously, by chance I checked my weight on my friends scale before we started, and when we finished I had lost almost 6 pounds...i wasn't able to eat all weekend) and we finished our 48 hour movie on time.
HOWEVER. when we got to the submission location, the head honcho who signed us up basically said that we were never in the competition, he was just allowing us to join and if someone didn't show then he would let us in. he said things like:
"so you got to make a movie under our rules, for free." OH AWESOME!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!! I mean paying 150 dollars to undergo immense amounts of stress, extreme weight loss and unhealthy lack of sleep is a privilege in itself..BUT FOR FREE!?!?! YOU'RE TOO FUCKING KIND. What a dick. Believe me guy, I can do all sorts of hazardous wastes of time for free..don't think you're doing me any favors.
I think what he meant to say is: "so you got to make a movie under our rules, and have absolutely nothing to show for it." because he still wanted to take our movie AND the contract that said you can't post it anywhere for over a year, so we would have essentially entered a vortex the past two days and then those hours of our lives would be gone forever...
needless to say, we stormed back in there after a quick meeting and asked for our contract back, then proceeded to burn it. that means I can post it somewhere for you to view very soon.
It really is a bummer, because I think we did a damn good job for 48 hours, and having seen some samples of what other people have done, ours could have impressed some judges for some awards...would have been a nice change to earn some credit for something we work hard on...
this is exciting. 25 hours in to a 48 hour film festival. we got chinese food on the way and we're going to edit the portion we shot today..then shooting all through night until sunrise, whereupon we'll go out and shoot some more...with balloons and the scooter. isn't that fun? it's due Sunday night at 7:30 pm, then will premiere at a local movie theatre to be voted on by judges.
if you're wondering why you're getting an email, you're not really, i've just set it up to where whenever I post on my splooge, it sends you a copy, that way i'm guaranteed a prompt audience, MUHA!
okay guys. i know you're all too nice to admit how ugly my website www.stevepappin.com was....even though i asked for your opinions, i don't think i got honest answers...which i appreciate fully.
HOWEVER. i did visit that place again recently, and was completely turned off by it's exhausting attempts to be something....but nothing...it was a weird website.
SO, i redesigned. something simpler i hope, and more enjoyable.
So I had to make another resume for class..this time Career Communications class. This of course got me in the whole professional business mood and what not, and I ended up deciding that my long time running: Operation: KillDie productions, may not be the best name for a production company when first getting started and trying to get people to hire me...but i dunno, that's why I'm here.
I threw this together real quick:
only because I'm too stubborn to simply give up the name I've been using since the very beginning of my career..."what career, steve?" shut up
so, it' s o: KD productions now. Better, right? Not so diabolical, but still a hint of awesomeness? Obviously it still means operation: KillDie, but no one needs to know that...
tell me what you think. constructive criticism puh-lease. unless of course you love it and would like me to design your next business logo...
wickity wow. been a while, yet again. my mother was getting on my case about the lacking updates, so i've done some organizing and hopefully I'm gettin ya'll up to date...sort of...
my head is extraordinarily heavy. i never realize it until i've done at least one keg stand. sorry ma, but yes, I did have to establish myself as king of keg stands tonight...bad idea, i know. it's probably also a bad idea to be writing in this state. but seriously, i must have a really strong neck that just wants a vacation whenever it can get it. my head is enormous. i need to give my body the credit it deserves sometimes. I mean, i never get sick, especially to the amount that friends get sick, and when i do, my body purges and it's done with. thank god for this strength. Now: not to abuse it and take it for granted, nawmeen? (say it aloud, and then imagine me saying it aloud and you'll get it.)
anywho, catch up, who doesn't love ketchup. something to try: Heinz's ORGANIC ketchup. totally awesome. if only all brands could make their products organic with the same results in terms of tastiness. i feel good about dipping my fried potatoes in Heinz's ORGANIC ketchup. kinda like i'm giving my body that credit it deserves already, eh? then i down a can of Coca-Cola (which they have SUGAR COLA now) and top it off with a grease-burger (BUBBA-BURGERS, pretty much awesome.) where was i? oh, show case:
Using light and shadow to tell a story. Concept based off a script I'm writing as a feature. Needs new music that my cousin may produce, as long as he's not sick of my crap! Shot in two nights, one of which I was vomitting in the grass just off camera. Good times.
yeah. vomitting. fo reals. we had footage of it, but it's long gone into the depths of lost hard drives. i think it turned out otherwise. i've definitely learned a lot since then. shoot, i just finished shooting some 16mm FILM for pete's sake. we're talking emulsion, pull down claws..all the great stuff. got any questions about how a film camera works, i'm your man. now if i could only get excited about trapping myself in L.A. for what my soul will think is an eternity as I slowly realize that a life of fame and egotistical "creative types" is not at all what i'm interested, and I'd rather ride my moped down main street in Fairfield, Iowa. Or out on Pleasant Plain road to the 2nd resevoir where I can sit and watch the sunset after an awesome bike ride on the Jefferson County Trail....afterwards I can go home and chill with my family and cats outside in the backyard with maybe some fireflys and perhaps a barbeque...bah humbug, how enticing a simple life is to me right now...
my parents are probably cringing as they read this, even I do sometimes..but I mean sheesh...the more and more I live the more and more the small things enrich the minutes that go by. perhaps I cling to a past that will never return in it's full glory, and I can only hope to submerge myself in nostalgic material possessions...which is never a healthy thing.
these days i immerse myself in other peoples creativity in order to feel good about myself. I find a good television show or a long single player video game and let others hard work satisfy me to the point that my fondest memories of Florida are that of Psych and Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. I can look on my shelf and conjure up where I was in life by simply seeing the title of the video game I was playing at the time. The office reminds me of days at home with kelsey watching episode after episode. Funny thing is, watching the office threw me back to my moments on stage during HOW TO SUCCEED IN BUSINESS WITHOUT REALLY TRYING. My memories are of memories before when times were glorious and happy, how depressing is that?
Apologies, I'm splooging all over the place here. Cry me a river and send me a greeting card. I just hope if I choose to fall of the face of the earth and just spend time in a rented house down the street from my family, you'll understand where i'm coming from. Not that that is my ultimate plan, but I'm just ensuring no surprises. :)
one of my biggest learning experiences while at Full Sail so far?
(try to watch it at the site in HD and with a good pair of headphones or some speakers with a sub woofer attached, or else you're not gonna get the full effect.)
A script I wrote almost 3 years ago inspired by my frequent trips to China Star. Huge learning experience in terms of translating to the screen. Shot in one night.
yep. i can make up lots of excuses for why this movie is the way it is. but hey, i don't even know if you like or not yet, so i'll skip on that, and perhaps fill you in later if you're curious. a majority of you read the script beforehand, so you all have an idea of what the movie should have/could have become, so sit back and enjoy. i will say that I do enjoy the acting and the intro titles :D (courtesy of MOI! YAY-UH)
ok. my buzz is fading and my head is returning to it's upright and locked position. i'm gonna call it a night after I guzzle some 2% and maybe rough Kuniko up a bit.
